You seem like a very nice lady and I am sorry that you are going through such pain. God has the answers to all of your prayers and will show you in His time. The Word of God does not condone unfaithfulness in marriage. One of the 10 commandments is "Thou shalt not commit adultery". What your husband did was wrong. You are faithful to him while he has had a child with another woman and was living with her all along. It sounds like your marriage is not as meaningful to him as it is to you. I pray that God will bless your marriage and make things better. A married couple should live together and love together before bringing a child into this world. Do not see it as there being something wrong with you because you know there isn't anything wrong if you were already blessed by giving birth to one child. See the fact that you have not concieved as a blessing of God looking out for you. Remember, God does according to His plan, but he does it in His time. Be patient and continue to pray that God help your husband to find himself. You are a beautiful person and you will be fine with or without him - I promise!