I am dealing with a number of issues in my life right now that are difficult for me. I'm trying to beat cancer and my husband is off living his life with his other woman as though I never existed. I cannot seem to get them off my mind. I feel so alone in this. I want to be free in my mind. Able to cast those things that hurt me out and continue on, but it is difficult. This has been a difficult marriage altogether, so in some ways I am free. I feel like my faith is being tested constantly. I want this year to be different. For God to place in my life the people and resources to help me to do what he has for me. I have to close chapters and move on.