i need prayer. i am a married man, involved in homosexuality.i have been involved for years. i want to be free. i want to have a normal married life. i think that i have contracted an std. i am ashamed and scared. all of this bad stuff is happening to us. i think that God hates me and is punishing me. i am so confused, angry and scared. please pray that God will let me feel his love if he has any more for me. please let me feel his presence if he still wants me. i have cursed him and told him that i don't want anything to do with him. but i do want Him. my wife should leave me. she is a wonderful woman married to an immoral ungodly man. i would rather die than for her to be punished for my sins. all of this stuff happening to us is effecting her too. not to mention if i have an STD she will get it to. i hate myself i really wish that my life were over so that i didn't have to deal with it anymore.