Snow...I encourage you to read the entire Gospel of John. Read it and then re-read to come to understand who our Lord and Savior is to everyday people like you and me. And read 5 proverbs a day...Proverbs is the book used to bring wisdom to those young in the faith. Each and everyday begin your day with Jesus...before you get up in the morning...talk to him...tell him your doubts, your fears...and then leave them with him to work on for just that one day. You will find over time...you will be able to leave them with him for 2 days...then a week...and eventually these morning conversations will lead to months of leaving your fears at his feet. Tell him everything Snow...he will not condemn you if you speak to him from your heart. If your are angry tell him, hurt tell him, having thoughts of wickedness tell him...and then ask him to help you to overcome them...for an hour, for two hours for 4 hours for a day. It is in HIM that we move and have our being...let him move within you by developing a dialogue and relationship in him. May the Lord rain peace and assurance upon you. In Jesus name...amen!