Update--

I ask again for your prayers at this time. I'm trying to do better about my situation, but I still have some faith-based issues. I have moved on...recently I was confronted with the idea of getting back together with this person. However, he is still in his other relationship and after contemplation that no matter how bad I wanted it, I could never be in that type of relationship with him. Unfortunately, he is not saved and also he is not mature enough to be with me. He has a difficult time standing up to people and telling them what he really wants, which is a major problem for me. In fact, some of the things that he confided in me recently about himself made me glad that we never dated and that we are just friends...things would have been more painful had they gone the other way.

Now, I really feel ready to move on--I know that I am more than able to...it's just that there is still a wall built up that I have a hard time knocking down. There hasn't been anyone that has been presented to me and I want to wait on the man God has for me, because I know that is an eternal bond that won't end up in heartache like this bond did. Please pray for me. I really only want to end up with the man the Lord has for me--I just have a really hard time dealing with it. At times I feel pathetic for never having a relationship of any kind although I know that that isn't the case. I am scared that I'll be waiting into my thirties for someone to arrive--I just don't want to be here forever. Please pray for me to have faith, to know that God does have someone for me. My cynical attitude needs to change and I just need to get over this hump in my life.

Thanks.