Please pray that I can repent of my sins. Last night as I drank I looked at my life and the world and actually denied to myself that god and Jesus actually exist. I never thought I could ever think or say such a thing. I am drinking to cope with life and I have goals but the drinking is destroying my life, my relationships and mentally I suffer from depression. I attract abusive men and I have been holding onto Kevin whose abused me emotionally and I think he loves me because of my mental state. I'm financially broke and requested my job to give me a part time job because I was on a medical leave because of my issues and so I coups finish school. They want me back full time. Please pray thY they'll give me the part time position. That the devil will leave me alone that I would keep god first always and that I rectify the relationship with my family. And with the lord and woth Kevin if possible. And with myself. I hate myself all around and sometimes I wish my mom wouldve aborted me as my dad had requested. Please pray for me please.