jessica13
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Joined: Aug 2008
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SUICIDE
I AM IN NEED OF PRAYER FOR MYSELF AND THE LIVES THAT I TOUCH AND INFLUENCE. I AM A SOCIALWORKER THAT WORKS PRIMARLY WITH SUICIDAL, DEPRESSED PATIENTS, DRUG ADDICTS, END OF LIFE CARE AND MANY OTHER NEEDS. FOR THE PAST WEEK I HAVE SEEN 2 OVERDOES PATIENTS, SEVERAL DEPRESSED PATIENTS AND A YOUNG WOMAN ON LIFE SUPPORT THAT HAS NOT CARED FOR HER MEDICAL NEEDS DUE TO HER DEPRESSION, AT THIS POINT SHE IS HANGING ON FOR HER LIFE. AS I HAVE KEEP MYSELF INVOLVED IN THIER CARE, SOMEWHERE I HAVE BECOME LOST IN MY WORK AND NOW HAVE BECOME EMOTIONALLY DRAINED, WHICH HAS CAUSED MANY OTHER EMOTIONS TO COME OUT AND I HAVE BEEN OVERWHELMED AND STRESSED. THE MAIN CONCERN THAT I HAVE WITH MYSELF IS I FORGET TO TURN TO THE MAIN PERSON I NEED TO FOR GUIDENCE AND STRENGTH, I GET MYSELF SO DOWN AND DEPRESSED CAUSING ANXIETY AND MANY OTHER THOUGHTS THAT RUN THROUGH MY HEAD TAKE OVER ME. I LOVE MY JOB AND I LOVE HELPING PEOPLE, I KNOW THAT THIS WAS CALLING AND THESE PEOPLE NEED ME. BUT I AM SCARED TO LOSE MY SANITY, AND WHAT GOOD WHAT I BE TO THEM. AT TIMES, I WANT TO SAY SO MUCH TO HELP THEM, THAT I CANT FIND THE RIGHT WORDS. ITS HARD WHEN YOU WORK FOR AN ORGANIZATION THAT IS NOT CHRISTIAN BASED, THEREFORE IT IS VERY HARD TO PRACTICE WITHOUT BEING WHO I AM. I DO WHAT I DO AND LOVE THE WAY I LOVE BECAUSE I HAVE THE LORD IN MY HEART AND I JUST WANT TO SHARE ALL THAT LOVE WITH OTHERS THAT DONT KNOW HIM AND THAT NEED HIM. I FEEL SO LOST AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE......I HAD STOPED GOING TO CHURCH FOR ALMOST 1 MONTH BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN SO EXAUSTED AND OTHER THINGS THAT COME UP....SO PLEASE PRAY FOR ME AND ALL THOSE PEOPLE THAT ARE LOST......THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS 
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