Thank you for your replies and prayers.

Bounty did you ever have writer's block or know what you want to say but it is not forming a nice story on paper, or any tips to overcome this confusion of thoughts/diffculties? I need the info to seek it's own place much faster due time limitations and deadlines.

I am now counter-productive and very nervous? usually i pull through (with plenty of work and prayers) but now i am just stuck! :(. I would love to untie some knots in my mind