I DON'T KNOW YOUR SITUATION BUT I CAN FEEL YOU REACHING OUT FOR HELP. PAULA0331 HAS ASKED SOME GREAT QUESTIONS AND I THINK THAT YOU SHOULD REALLY TAKE HER ADVICE. I HAVE LEARN THAT WHEN GOD HAS SOMETHING THAT HE NEEDS FOR US TO DO, THEN WE HAVE TO GET IN PLACE WITH HIM SO THAT HIS WILL CAN BE DONE. GET IN YOUR SECRET CLOSET AND TURN DOWN YOUR PLATE IN FASTING AND JUST SAY GOD I AM HERE. I AM LOST AND I NEED YOUR HELP. THE WORD SAY THAT IF WE SEEK WE SHALL FIND AND IF YOU SEEK YE FIRST THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN, THEN HE WILL ADD ALL OTHER THINGS BUT WE MUST SEEK HIM FIRST.