Well, the Lord is not the author of confusion and if you are confused about something, chances are that it is not the will of God. Please do not take this the wrong way, but you may be relying upon your emotions to guide you--which is quite easy to do when we are emotional beings. The best thing to do is what you have been--begin by praying to God and submitting fully to His will for your life. Second, you need to read your bible and study it thoroughly. The Lord will speak to you if you ask Him to open your heart to see what the answer is to your dilema. I hope that that helps you in your situation and that my advise hasn't been too harsh or vague.

Dear Lord,

Please make Your will abundantly clear to this person. It is obvious that they have the desire to do what You have asked, but it is a cloudy road. I pray that You would give them all the reassurance they need for the direction You want them to take--for the stand You would have them to make. Please, touch their heart and show them Your way and Your path.

We ask in Christ's name. Amen.