I have found myself at rock bottom after trying to aid others when I ignored my own needs....I was recently diognosed with multiple mental illnesses ontop of financial and social crisis....I'm only 21 and I feel like it's all over for me....I'm getting "help" medicaly, though it will not heal me the way God can heal.... I seek him, I don't want my illnesses and doubt getting between me and God, but right now, I'M LOST, ALONE....And Scared. It really hit me when I found myself in the bathtub with a razor blade......The bath water was stained pure red with blood..... The hurt inside was far more intence than the gushing of my wrists....As if the physical rhelm lost me, no real pain, just the cringing of my heart..... I don't expect anybody to understand something so horrible, I just need prayer and I'm crying out before it's too late....PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!........I need God, I need hope.....I don't want to live in this hell anymore.....Thank you, God bless. I pray that no one else ever has to be this lost, though I'm sure I am no the only one...............