I am so desperate. I need the Lord so much. I am praying for a second chance at life. But I keep on missing all the chances He gives me. I can't get this right. I fail to trust Him again and again. I thought I knew Him, but now I feel like I don't know Him at all. He feels so distant, when He was so near.
Please pray I can hear His clear direction! And I will follow it. I totally messed up in following Him before-- mishearing His voice, so now I am afraid to try to follow Him again. Afraid of stepping out and Him not being there. Can He please give assurance as to what to do? Open impossible doors in my life? Somehow some way will He teach me in the way I should go to get to the place I long to be and somehow make everything right again? Pray that this would be my second chance, and that somehow miraculously, God would be in this.

Thank you for any prayer! Jesus is my only hope in this, so your prayers mean everything!