I have suffered a nervous breakdown due to the trauma of my past two surgeries that caused me to never have children. I am divorced and very alone in my struggles. I don't have any friends. They seem to keep finding mates, having children and moving away. My family is very small and are trying to be as supportive as possible, but this is more than I can bear. I fear I will lose my job from this and my family is poor and I have no one that can help me. I was always the one my family turned too. I feel like that I will always be alone. I know the Lord is always with me and I beg for him to heal me all the time and read my Bible. I try not to let my mind race, but the hardest is the anxiety and panic attacks. They start as soon as I wake in the morning. I try to be a good Christian and a good person and I know that this just sometimes happens to people. I am seeking professional help but even with the meds I am shaking to pieces. I am only 35 and I feel like I have been throught the wringer and I really don't want to live any more. I have asked the Lord to please just take me. My life has been very hard. I know many have it harder than I, but this is the worst thing I have ever had to deal with. Please find it in your heart to pray for me, Rachael, in Lousiville for this dreaded agony I am suffering with. I don't know what I have done, but Lord please forgive me for all of my sins I repent of every sin and beg you to please help me. I can't take much more. Every day is struggle not to end my life and I am very scared and scarred. Thank you for your time and prayers.