Mel,

I'm sorry for the confusion. I just didn't want you to take my advice as a spiritual attack--I was not saying in any way that your situation is not a spiritual attack. I wanted you to know that what I was saying was in love--and to help you, because I am right around your age and in my situation there were times where I just wanted to die...to give up. Sometimes, I still do. All I am suggesting is put your faith and trust in God to help you through this, especially with your ex-boyfriend situation. I have done that and so far I have seen progress. My friend and I have gotten a little closer since the summer, perhaps not in a romantic sense, but I definately consider it a friendship that is more dependable than before.

I know sometimes it feels like God is simply sitting around, but His timing is perfect. Just ask Him to open the door for you to be a witness to your ex--I realize that you have other requests, but it seems as though this is the most prominent (and if I'm wrong, I apologize)--this is the only one I think I can truly relate to and help you with. He'll prepare you and if you just trust in God and not necessarily the restoration of your relationship, you'll find a deeper joy than if you trust in your ex.

Please don't take this the wrong way. I'm not suggesting by any means that you may not get back with your ex--in fact, I'm hoping for the same in my own situation. However, I think the best thing for both of us to do is focus on the Lord--grow in Him and allow His love to flow through. Our love for our lost friends will never be enough, but God can shine through and use both of us as a tool to introduce them to Christ. Does that make sense?

Just don't focus so much on the reconciliation and in God's time, if it is His will, it will come to pass. You know for certain that it is the will of God to bring your ex to Christ, so focus on that--then worry about the relationship.

I hope that I haven't been offensive. I'm not trying to assume that I know what you're going through in every way. I just know how much it hurts to be rejected in love and I know that when I started to put God first and the salvation of my friend, it helped me to better coupe with the challenge of accepting God's "No" to my relationship for a higher "Yes."

Hope this has helped.