Lord, please help me with this battle... Today either though my faith remains subtle, I still struggle with doubtful thoughts in my head... like what if none of these come to pass... what if the salvation does not happen...? What if the reconciliation does not happen, even when he's saved...? What if I'm fighting for nothing? ...Get thee behind me, Satan. You're just trying your best do get me to doubt God and his miracles, aren't you??? I may waver, but I will not fall. God I do believe and receive all of these miracles! You definitely showed my mother countless times that dreams do come true! I am a living example of that! Please God... help me overcome my unbelief and doubt. You know... the more the devil tries to make me doubt about this fight, ESPECIALLY when it comes to the salvation and reconciliation... the more I know and believe it's going to happen, because that is one of the main desires and prayers the devil is trying to attack me on! I realize that as of now from a distance... Lord, send angels to my exboyfriend... constantly lend him Your voice every waking minute of the day... Anything to have him come to You... I know he can... and I know he will... He's a lost soul, and I know that soul is meant to be found... Nonetheless, he had me, a Godly woman in his life... that I do know he can and will come to You and also reconcile with me, blessed by You, Lord... You know I love him... and you know I want him saved... and I still receive reconciliation, whenever that will be. Continue to give my mother the strength to stop smoking... she knows its hard on her... harder on her than it is on me. Continue to give my father the strength and take away any fear and anxiety from him and his healing... I know he's scared Lord for anything to happen to him and to leave us here without him... He's 65, a young age still in my heart... He still can go strong... all he needs is You. And I need You more than ever...

This is all I want right now... the other stuff can wait for all I know... Yes I still want to gain 125, and it's still a difficult process (I still haven't gain a pound... metabolism is too fast I think...); but all I want is my family back together... My mother smoke-free, my father healed, my ex-boyfriend saved and our relationship reconciled... Lord, I feel that I am praying according to Your will... right? And I still believe in these things to happen... the faith is still there... I just don't want to waver in unbelief and doubt for a single second, otherwise the prayer is canceled and I have to start over again... Help me overcome any unbelief and doubts Lord... All I want is the people I love... happy, healthy and loving... I care more for them than I do myself... they are my everything... They are my heart... Lord, please send me a miracle... a sign... a premonition... an angel... a blessing... or a dream/vision that will help me indeed in spirit... I am with You, God... there is no one else that can help me like You can... I am in a spiritual battle; I chose to be in it, I am fighting for the long run... and I'm not going to end this battle failing. Jesus... please come quickly... turn these situations around soon... These people are everything to me... I thank You for sending me these people... Please Lord... Send them back to me renewed and happily united as one; a family with me. I have high expectations, that I do. Please have me keep these expectations high... strengthen me and my faith... take away all fear and doubt and unbelief and anxiety... I need You... I need and want my family back... my significant other (my exboyfriend) found in You and in my arms again, this time for eternity... It's hard, Lord... each day is and will be harder and harder... Please get me through this... and bring my loved ones together once more... forever and ever... in Jesus name I pray and pray. Amen... and Amen.