To all people who believe that this isn't in God's will, let me say that the only way it will NOT be in His will is if you just stop believing in that desire all together. Does it say in the Bible that God can and will change our desires? Not exactly. The only way He can do that is to ask Him to change them for you. If YOU want to stop the prayer/desire, THEN God will do so. If you still believe by faith that your desires WILL come to pass, THEN God will grant them. "If You, Then God." I have listened to a sermon on television about that a few days ago, and I read another article/essay online about the same thing by another pastor. "If you . . . , Then God. . . " The only way GOD will change it is if YOU do. That's all that matters. And I am still going to remain steadfast and if doubt enters my mind on this subject one bit, then I'm doubting on my faith in God. My faith hath healed me, saith the Lord. Faith in Christ is what will bring our desires to pass only IF we continue to desire for them. And I have vowed to God to stay steadfast on these prayers of mine. And I am reading His word (the bible) in the process. There are many women (one who is also a member here) is going through the SAME thing and believing the SAME thing I am. Please do not say otherwise that it is not in God's Will or if you think this "isn't God's gift to me". Am I not God's gift to my mother, even though I was not expected to live by being born 3 months early and being 1 lb. 9 ounces? Are we ALL not God's gifts, even the lost sheep? Our faith is HIS gift to us, for we are blessed with it. And I am blessed that Jesus and His teachings is taking my faith to a whole new level. Let it be. And God Bless,