Due to changes at the firm I was working for 8 yrs I was let go with very little notice and no severance. Being the larger part of the 60/40 bread winner split in our home this was and continues to be very very difficult to put it mildly. We our facing foreclosure of our home, we have had to seek out financial assistance from charity organizations as well as the state just to keep the lights on and children fed. What once seemed like a hopeful future is now a blur. BUT we know God has a PLAN. Please help us to SEE that, LIVE that, WALK in that. So that not only will we be at Peace but that our Children will see and learn to seek God and trust in Him all of their lives. I know I (we) are failing them greatly daily as we walk in defeat, as it is written all over our faces. We truly feel God has ordained all of this and that He does not want me to work outside of the home. But for my husband to take that role 100% and for me to learn to be a housewife and stay at home mother to our 3 children. Although, I am so bad at it. I love being with the children and playing with them, feeding them, taking them to the park, to church, its not that. Its the taking care of the home where I am such a failure. It is picked up, but that is it. Also as you can see I stay up very late hours and its not always bad, usually it is reading biblical things, but then I sleep late and am grouchy when I do wake up and then its 12 or 1pm before things get started and then I never get in the day what I wanted and its become so destructive as I feel like a looser every day, sometimes I dont even feel like God loves me. I know that in itself is a sin. Yea thats enough for tonight. Please pray. Please please please pray for us. We have so much to be thankful for.... we truly do. Just dont even know where to begin to turn this around.