I feel alone and forgotten and left behind. I WILL NOT GIVE UP but I feel like it. I wonder if God is ever going to answer the prayers I have been praying for 30 years. I want a friend... I want a job I will be happy in. I just turned down a great sounding job with great benefits today because the people wanted to pay me "under the table" and I know God wouldn't have wanted me to do anything illegal. So now I have to return to teaching in the fall, and I'm SO burned out on teaching special ed. I am still waiting, praying for God to rescue me. From my job, from myself, from my eating disorder. I keep obeying him, I keep waiting on him, but I am feeling so discouraged, and I am SO alone and I have no one to talk to. I miss so much my old therapist who dumped me suddenly back in January-- she gave up on me and the rejection hurts so much still. I need God to rescue me. I wish Jesus would return and save me from all of this, because I want to give up. Sometimes I wonder if God is ever going to really help me... if my breakthrough is EVER going to come...because I have been waiting for almost 30 years now. And I am so tired.