[/bible][/color][/size][/font][size=x-large][color=#800000][font][font=Times New Roman][/font][font=Courier]I am deep in sin. i have been doing things that i know are bad. i have lost sight of the goal and have lost all desire to have a pure heart. i have become complacent in my faith, i havent forgiven people who have recently hurt me, and the worst thing is that they are things that can easily be forgiven but i havent because of my foolishness. it was me who actually hurt them. i had a hurt that i didnt trust god in healing and now it is affecting everything in my life. i have made life harder for myself, i am destroying my family because of my sins, and worse yet i am having difficulty in coming to God. I am still worried about many things, and im having a hard time coming to reality and confessing my sins directly and honestly to God, everytime i do i just go back to doing what i usually do. i have such a hard time being faithful, i fall away so quickly,God loves me and has shown me his grace so so so many times, and still i dont know why i cant break free and be faithful.