Years ago I have a big fight with my cousin over a guy whom I want it so bad,my cuz used to be like my best friend and i trusted her so much.I feel so hurt,humiliated and depressed for what she have done to me.Since then,the rift between us have become stronger and stronger coz there are certain things involving in it and she convince all my other cousins to take her side.It seems like they were all against me and I hate them so much!...I cant stop hating them even if I pray to God,I was so full of anger,bitterness and jealousy and somehow It makes me felt insecure and lost my self-confidence.Now I'm 28,almost 29 I wanna get over this whole thing,forget about it and get married,but still I don't find the right guy,I guess its time for me to settle down now.I really want to have a husband within this year and I don't wanna hate my cousins anymore coz it was such a stressful thing to hate someone and gettin jealous of them,I just dont want them to be my problem anymore.So,please pray for me so that I could get married within this year with a wonderful guy who could love me and whom I could love back in return,plus please pray that I could stop hating those people and never be my problem again!.