Praying for your healing. I survived a very abusive marriage, the man I was married to is one of the most evil people I have ever met. He is not at all what he pretends to be to others that do not know him well. I lived through this marriage & divorce & I am doing pretty well now. Keep on going, loving, don't give up. There are many good people out there that do care. Don't give up on God, let God care for you, help you to heal & to Love you. There are times in life where things do not make any sense. Push through them to the other side so you can be with God, & allow God to deal with those people & situation that overwhelm you. Continue seeking goodness, there is much, & avoid those that are cruel if possible.
God Bless you.