I thank God for all the blessings that he has given me and give him praise, honor, and glory forever. I have prayed in the name of Jesus Christ and read the Bible seeking God's wisdom to help me in my time of need. For years I have waited in hope and faith for God's help and favor to come, but now I am losing my faith that God will ever rescue me. No job, ill, no will to go on- the days are all the same filled with prayer for help, wait in faith and hope, then nothing changes. I aam overwhelmed and just want peace from this suffering and torment. I am tired of believing and hoping. I have been hurt beyond explanation for having faith. I wish someone could explain why God has foresaken and abandoned me. It hurts to much to expect God loves me and will answer my prayers with help- for years have passed and the more I seek God the worst my life gets. I can not live like this and as much as I pray for death- God will not grant me that either. Someone please explain how I can get help from God. I am desperate.