National day of prayer brought me more hurt and agony than anything else. I am at my end, i thought that i was already at rock bottom, but it seems like i keep getting hurt. Today has been such a hard day already and i have only been up for two hours. This weekend would be two years that i found out that i was pregnant with my son, and it will be my second mothers day. Last year my husband forgot all about it and worked that day, he told me he would make it up to me this year. Well we are in a hell of a divorce battle and i am pregnant with our second child, which i find out the sex on Monday. I have been praying and begging for my husband to come back to us and drop the divorce but he seems to just pull back further and further and has more hate for me. I have never done anything wrong so i don't understand why i am getting punished like this. This all started because he told me he was going to come into our house and take our son and my car away from me in the middle of the night, so i got a restraining order. I have told him over and over that i was sorry and that i love him, but he said that i hurt him to much and he will never forgive me. But he doesn't see that he is hurting me more than anything else. I still pray that God will soften Dmitriy's heart and show him that he is hurting me, our son, and our unborn child. I pray that one of these days he will just wake up and realize what he is doing is wrong, and will contact me in someway. I pray that God give me his strength so i can make it through the tuff times that are ahead of me. I pray that God will stop Dmitiry's mother Frida from hurting me as well, and to have her stop pressuring Dmitriy into this divorce because she doesn't like me. I pray that Dmitriy will see that as a 26 year old man, he should no longer need his mother to protect him and fight his battle, that his children and I should come before her. I pray this all ends soon, my body, and my unborn baby can no longer take all the stress, anxiety, panic attacks, and broken heart any more. Lord, your word says that what you have put together, let no man tear asunder. Please place us back together like you did before. Please Lord will you rescue my marriage from destruction, will you stop the pain, and the heartache. I am for ever grateful to you my Lord, i know that you listen to my every word and are here to wipe away all my tears, but i am asking you to stop this once an for all, I can't handle it anymore. Lord you said ask and you shall receive, and Lord I have been asking and now i am just waiting to receive.