RE: Need a place to move
Well, some really harsh, judgmental stuff was said to me...and the devil used it, big time, to put a spirit of fear and condemnation on me...and I wavered between thinking I wouldn't get a place to live on time and that I was a bad Christian for focusing too much on the fact I have to move. I was so beat up on by the devil taking this well meaning Christian's words and telling me lies all day...and I felt so scared and like I just couldn't connect with God. I felt like God was way outside my anxious thoughts and my mind was seperated from thinking rationally toward God (if that makes any sense.) This was going on all day at work, and I am much calmer now. So, I praise the Lord that I feel calmer now. Typing this, is kind of stirring up the negative thoughts/feelings, though. Anyway, pray I am delivered from anxiety and condemnation. I have been telling the devil through out the day, "Get thee behind me Satan," and saying, "Spirit of fear GO!!!, in the Name of Jesus."
For some reason this person thinks I am selfish in what I am asking for and that I am too focused on thoughts of moving to having forgotten about God. But every place I read on in the paper, call for info, go check out, apply for is a place I pray over telling God if this is the place let me know, indicated clearly, give me FAVOR for it, etc. I have not taken one step of this journey without praying for FAVOR for the right place. I absolutely do not know what this person's deal is about me getting into a half way decent place to live. It is really discouraging, and I am praying for wisdom in how to deal with them. But pray I don't take any of their condemning comments to heart. I was really getting freaked at work and I thought I was going to make myself so nervous I would throw up.
The devil, for some reason, is really attacking my mind/thoughts in regards to moving. He is using this person, for one, to say things that are just uncalled for. Pray for me to know how to fight the devil on this one. Obviously, there is something about this move the devil opposes. Or why such opposition from someone who should be helpful and encouraging at this difficult time? I don't know why the devil doesn't want me to pray and believe for a good place to live...but God must be up to something in all this for the devil to fight me so hard. What was going on at work, today, was obviously a demonic attack.
I thank you all for praying.
I thank the Lord he understands my human fraility in this matter.
Please, brothers and sisters, I was losing the battle so badly today...just pray I can have peace. Pray if it's not the studio (haven't heard anything yet), I quickly find the one God has been lining up for me all along.
MidnightWarrior
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