I am finding myself slipping back into my old routine of desperation and sadness. I just want to be with him. I can't seem to make it work with anyone else- and I try, I really do- but he's always in the back of my mind. He's been with someone else for a while now, and we haven't spoken in months, but I still hold on to hope. I don't want it anymore. I don't want to be sad or hurt or angry or fearful of a future without him, and I don't want to hold onto a false idea of us getting back together. I truly want him to be happy and I pray that while he's in the service that he stays safe and healthy and happy. BUT I want to be happy, too. With or without him.The problem is still accepting the "without him" part. Please help me.