Health problems:

Dull headache 24/7
Breathing problems
Fatigue
Heart palpitations


Mental:

Have hard time feeling "Awake" or "Alive", I feel like I'm floating
Constant whirlpool of philosophy I -don't- want to be thinking about, but

cannot suppress
Lack of motivation, lack of feelings, I feel like a robot, blind
I feel like my brain is just mush and I'm drifting through life
If I don't feel emotion, I feel scared all the time, scared of eternity, scared of

the dark
I feel constantly lonely
I feel like life's clock is going "tick tock" in my head
When I try to do anything, I feel the devil pressing his foot down on my neck. I

feel physically and mentally INCREDIBLY weak. I have no idea how to get up. I

feel drained of any positive energy.

Emotional:
I consider myself too mentally arrogant but physically insecure
I feel ugly, fat
I feel regret about not continuing dance, but at the same time I feel the devil

holding me down whenever I try to start again.
I feel depressed all the time

Please help me, I have no idea how to move. I feel blind, deaf, and like I have no limbs, spiritually. I have no idea how to move out of this hole, WHY DO I FEEL DEAD? I FEEL LIKE I AM NOT ALIVE. PLEASE HELP ME!