Cheryl, Forgive me for not posting sooner. I am so sorry to hear that you are suffering. I think about you very often, you have become a dear friend and have always been a shoulder for me during my difficult times. Please don't despair, because I know that Jesus died for us all and he is with you always. Especially during the struggles. Never give up on him, just stay strong in your belief in him and he will guide you through your struggles. I will keep you in my prayers always.
Love you
MR