I am a struggling christian. Recently married for first @ age 35- Never saw purpose in marriage until got saved- and really believe that is God's way. Since married we have not gone to church- I have ptsd- anxiety and severe depression for yrs- could not work- Jesus healed me!! Now working married living life normally- but struggling- w/ new life style- sinning- and realize that I can really get lost again. My husband was saved but neer a real surrender- has been hurt by people at church- he thinks they only care for him if he goes to church or works for them. His mom died shortly after salvation and suffered greatly at end (lung cancer) I just need strength for my wordays (10) hrs a day and my home life stresses- we have 2 teens one mine (boy 18 yrs- his daughter 16 and my 9 yr old boy- I see a great favoritism towards his daughter- i just pray about it- my son is graduating this yr- in high school- has a job on weekends ang after school and going to trade school as well- his daughter- only will talk on phone and and pout is has to stay home- she has been manipulating us and her mother- on birth control- and not trying to get a job- complains about doing dishes etc- and my husband is always calling my son lazy etc- then i say something negative abt his girl- I know i am wrong! it seems like everything my husband hates in others is exactly what he is doing- he has been laid off for a few mos. now- and just sits around eating and blows money at the casino's etc and tells me i spend too much of paycheck (on bills and food) I am sorry to complain I am grate ful for all I have and give God/ Jesus all the credit- we are just really stressed out- people are getting fired where i work every day and it is scary- please pray for me and my new family-