please pray for me. I am so depressed. every morning i wake up saying God i hate my life. I miss my children so badly. I pushed my family away from me from the yelling i did. My husband was cheating on me and not working. instead of talking it out and letting it go i yelled and mad him and my kids nervous. now my kids are in foster care and they dont talk to me. my ex is not talking to me and i have a job i don't particulary like. please god allow my kids to talk to me and come home to me. i have to fight for my daughter to stay in connecticut she wants to move to massachusetss and never see me again. she said i am ruining her life. I have a court date on february 18, 2010 to fight to get her to stay in connecticut. It may not mean she is coming home to me, but i am going to fight to get her to come home to me. i miss her and richard and tim badly i pray that my family can be reconciled and we can be the loving family we were when they were little. I just found out my son called my sister to have her pick him up to see her, and he could have called me to come pick him up and be wtih me. she was busy, i am hurt that he did not call me pray that i can see richard and rachel this week. my ex has a visit with them on wednesday i miss them so much God please let 2010 be better for me and my kids can come home to me. please please please i beg u to hear my crys and prayers and restore my marriage in jesus precious name i pray amen