Thank you all so much for your prayers.

Please continue to pray diligently for my marriage to be restored and made better than ever with God's presence. I still beleive that she is indeed who God intended for me and am at a loss for words to describe how terrified I am of losing her...... We are still so disconnected and I have never been so lonely in my life. I continue to tell her I love her and try and demonstate it in various ways. I have so regretfully hurt her numerous times over the years and it tears me up to think I may have driven her away from being able to love me again.

Its the most painful experience I have ever endured and its my own fault. I have repented from the things I was doing and pray she will forgive me as Jesus has. I have learned so much in the past couple weeks about Gods instructions for Husbands and I would not only die for her but I'll live for her as well. Please continue to pray she will give me the opportunity

Still struggling a little with smoking but I'm progressing. Please pray for my deliverance from this addiction as well

Pray that she would grant me one final opportunity for forgiveness and that I can finally love her as God intended me too as I walk with him. Also pray for her healing and well being.