Please continue to pray diligently for my marriage to be restored and made better than ever with God's presence. Also pray for me to grow in the lord as I just recommitted my life to Jesus after about 18 years of backsliding which have ultimately resulted in my having driven my wife of 15 years to desire a separation, potentially a divorce.

Though neither of us were truly walking with the lord at this marriages conception or thoughout it, I still beleive that she is indeed who God intended for me and am at a loss for words to describe how terrified I am of losing her...... We are still so disconnected and I have never been so lonely in my life. I continue to tell her I love her and try and demonstate it in various ways but get no response. I have so regretfully hurt her numerous times over the years and it tears me up to think I may have driven her away from being able to love me again. Its the most painful experience I have ever endured and its my own fault. I have repented from the things I was doing and pray she will forgive me as Jesus has.

Still struggling a little with smoking but I'm progressing. Please pray for my deliverance from this addiction as well

Pray that she would grant me one final opportunity for forgiveness and that I can finally love her as God intended me too as I walk with him. Also pray for her healing and well being.