Hi All,

I'm new to this and I thought maybe this would help and somehow create a peace of mind and hopefully a new chapter.

I'm not very close to God and haven't been in over 10yrs. I'm 27 years old and I've grown apart from Him in the mix of everything that life has to offer. I feel asthough a lot of what I'm going through could be that I have asolutely no shield or strength out here in the world. I'm failing as a person and as whoever God has wanted me to be. I've tried to make my own way out of stubborness and rational thought and I ignore everything that I've been taught in His word and what He's trying to do.

I truly need help...

I always worry about work, family etc. And it's slowing damaging who I am as a person. I see that and it kills me. I haven't found it in myself to try and get help or even support. I have no support or anyone to talk with only because I allow my pride to get in the way and I refuse to let others think of me as weak. But, in turn I'm crying inside everyday and it's just this vicious circle that I see only going downwards.

I'm here tonight because I need prayer. I need clarity. I want to believe that He's there. I want to believe that He's in control and that I'm not alone out here. I need security in myself and Him... All I ask is that if you feel lead to that you take a few mins to think of me and to send a prayer for my salvation and to bring understanding. I need this more than you know.

Thank you...