Finished 2 yrs of extra college to get a teacher certification. Have to pay those back plus some. I got an email that this job I was supposed to start next week has been delayed cause of 'paperwork issue', which could mean anything. Tomorrow i'll be calling the HR to see if I can solve it. Meantime, been hanging by a thread, bills are high, desperation's knocking. Plus the loneliness gnawing at me. It is so easy just to let go. I can't pray right now and that's why I am writing here. Why is it so very hard to be heard by this high God? I am not blaming him, still it'd be so easy for Him to just stick out a helping hand and pick me up from all this. Yet tomorrow i'll have to wake up to the same situation and alone. Sorry and God bless you all.