First off I want appoligise if I make any spelling or gramer errors. Well I am a young man full of troubles and problems. I was raised with great parents and a good enviroment. But for the past few years I have been struggling with a pornography addiction and self addiction problem. I want to be a better person I just can't stop looking or watching pornography. I have prayed about it many times but I always go back to it. years ago I got fired from a job and then for 2 years i was looking for work and I was at the end of my rope. I even consider stopping my faith. Finally I got help with a therapist and prayer from my pastor. I got a job the very next day from the prayer from my pastor. NOW I got layed off almost a year ago now and I can't find work and it seems like I am getting back into my old style of hiding from the world and just going back to my addictions. I DO NOT want to be that person anymore.

I want to be better. I want GOD in my life so bad. I want to be able to feel him in my hear and in my soul. I know a job isn't the answer to all my prayers but It would sure help me and future. I have been praying for GOD and Jesus and the holy spirit to be a bigger part of my life. I want to a better man to GOD and to myself. But I don't even like myself anymore because of the things I am doing. I honestly feel that GOD is disapointed in me because of things I am doing and maybe thats why he is not helping me. I honestly don't know anymore. PLEASE can someone, anyone pray for me and my soul and my heart and my mind to be at ease and for me to stop my addictions and for me to find my path in life and to find a good job and be able to provide for myself and possible a family one day. Please know I want to change I just feel like I don't have the strength to do it. Please someone pray for me.

thank you for listening to me today.