Thank you to all who have been praying for my family and me. I know the Lord is working even though I cannot see the results. This is very hard for me because for as long as I can remember, I have only ever thought about them, I only talk about them. There are people at work have gotten sick of how I am always talking about my wife and 2 boys, and now that is all being ripped away from me. I am scared. I am scared that my wife is truly done and I am still hopelessly in love with her, even though I have not been able to show that. I am scared that my boys will be angry with me for anything that I have done to cause my family pain and they will turn away from me. My oldest son is not truly mine, he has my name, but he was my wife's before me, but I have always been "Dad", and I am afraid I will lose that. I don't want to lose my family.. Please Lord help make this family whole again. My Heart is breaking and I am a shattered man.