Dear Sister,

I really understand where you are coming from and there really is only one answer, to continue to pray, even when you do not want to or feel like it.

Be honest with God as you cannot hide anything from him anyways, he knows your heart.

I can only tell you through my own trials, that I am really learning about my own heart, and what I need to change. The things that were revealed about my own heart, were not pretty, as I had many feelings of rage, bitterness and revenge. God understands that, and will bring healing .

Healng sometimes does not happen overnight, as it took years to create these situations, so my best suggestion, is be honest with God, even if your mad at him. He can take it.

Through his healing, love and spirit, you will be eventually able to see that it was never about your boyfriend, but what God is wanting to do in your own heart and remember that revenge is God's not ours. Also it is about choosing again, do I want to be bitter or better.

Psalms are a great source of comfort , as remember God knows your heart, and a heart that God desires most, is a honest heart.

My prayers will be with you.

In His Love.