I'm a 17 year old girl and I have made some really dumb decisions in the past couple of years. I have had unprotected sex with a couple men that I barely knew more than their name. I cry all the time because I know how stupid it is and I'm only 17 I have my whole life ahead of me. I recently heard about Anonymous HIV testing sites and I've decided I'm gunna get myself tested, it's the best thing I can do for myself. I need to know my status because it is killing me not knowing.
Although I want to be, I've never found myself really close with god. Everything I've been through in my life, I used to resent god for putting me through everything. But as I grew up I realized that through everything, good or bad, he's the only one that's been there other than myself. I would do anything to be closer to him. I wish I could take back all the sins in my life and have a perfect relationship with him but it's not possible. I just hope he understands that I was just a kid and I was stupid and I've been stupid. I just want a second chance because I messed up the first one. I believe in second chances. I have so much to offer the world and so much to get out of life. I have so much going for me and if he gives me a second chance I will never mess up again. I can't promise I'll never sin again. but I'll respect myself and my health and I will take care of myself. please pray for me, and I'll pray for myself and hope that he will listen.