I write this, so that people pray for us and me . But I also write this as a prayer to God myself too.
Please pray for me, for my marriage. I went through a period of time in which I was very angry at my wife for not wanting to have sex with me. But this caused a lot of negativity around sex, and fear, like from wife's perspective "If I don't have sex, PETER COULD GET MAD... HE COULD GET ANGRY.
It has really messed with our sex life because even though I have changed, and have not been upset, or had the pressure. Rebecca has still been remembering the "old Peter" .
Please pray that Rebecca doesn't remember the "old Peter" anymore in God's will. And that she accepts, and trusts the NEW Peter, THAT WON'T get mad if there's a no to sex, that is not desperate for sex, that is not needy for sex.
Pray that Rebecca doesn't view me from the Len's of fear/ trauma / fear based behavior or anything anymore at all.
Pray that God brings so much healing that it's 100% healed as if all this bad stuff never even happened at all in the first place and above and beyond.
Pray for this all to happen ASAP too.
Pray that God helps create a NEW STORY/ new stories with sex with Rebecca and me, that sex is fun. Sex is exciting. Sex is NOT a fear based/ anger avoidance / tip toe thing , nothing to be afraid of anymore.
Pray that Rebecca trusts the 'new me" 100% and that there's not trust issues from lingering trauma at all. And any remaining trauma is 100% gone and healed entirely and gone forever.
Pray that Rebecca has ah-ha moments and see's and trusts , and realizes that I am different and actually puts things together.... Jesus 100% Lord. have everything "click" that needs to click in her, to where she is like
"O wow, Peter is different , she trusts it 100% and doesn't need to think fearfully or anxiously or punishment/ fear avoidant with me or anything bad with me at all. in anything.
Pray for God's grace to be extended big time.
Pray for me too, that I am no longer worried of Rebeca "rejecting me" in sex. No longer worried about Rebecca "not wanting sex" , having negativity about sex/ sex with me.
Pray that God removes all fears and anxieties from both of us entirely and that we are both 100% free.
Pray that Rebecca also opens up to different types of sex too, and is not closed off to adventurous things and more.
Pray that God brings incredible transformation that is literally to the fullest of what's possible in our lives not only sexually but in every areas and our family.
Jesus thank you
Go even above and beyond these things Lord.
Pray to that God increases money in our lives too. Money could increase. Thank you.
