i totally understand as i too am like that. i have been on so many meds to help. the meds made things worse in my case. i am slowly getting better over time but every so often i get so over worked up in a panic and anxiety and even depression. depending on where i am at i go to the bathroom and splash cold water on my face or curl each one of my fingers and count to 10. of course i pray and ask Jesus be with me. even then sometimes it is overwhelming- i try to be honest with people and tell them i need a min and just go and close the door and just close my eyes

i know this is not perfect solution this is just what i do- i pray with the you that Jesus will uplift your spirit and heart and that you can conquered all that you need to finish in his name Amen