I pray that The Lord will open a door soon for you and things will get better. You have a purpose in the world and God will reveal it to you as you keep knocking on his door and asking..May he fill you with His light and love as you seek to obey Him and may others be drawn to Jesus through you. May he bless you with special life- long friends, and work that you find not too stressful, even work you can enjoy. God bless you my friend