Hello,
I've sent in a few prayer requests to this forum. I'm really struggling with my faith right now. I've always felt very out of place as a Christian. I have never really felt like I "belonged" within the Christian community. I have had a lot of bad experiences with other Christians and in different churches. I mentioned before that I struggled in the past with experimenting with witchcraft and the occult. One of the reasons why it was so easy for me to turn away from my faith was because I have never really felt like I fit in to this community. I have always felt unwanted. I have always felt unliked. I have always felt completely out of place. I am currently going through a very difficult period in my life. That couple with the amount of spiritual warfare that I have gone through is really weighing down on me. I have asked so many people to pray for me and I feel like those prayers are working. I feel so close to God. I feel as if my relationship with Jesus has turned back to what it once was, long ago, before I ever turned from Him. But now that I have been healed from the lifestyle that I was previously involved in, those old struggles are beginning to creep back up. I love God so much. I love Jesus. I love being a Christian. I love being in God's presence. But I do not feel like I belong within the Christian community. I'm sorry that this prayer request focuses so much on "feelings". That's just the only word that I can use to describe what I am experiencing emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Please pray for me.