In the battle of life I usually pick myself up and feel revived once again. But last few weeks have been in a way especially difficult . I was feeling vulnerable and have had one attack after another through family members, who have not made a commitment to walking with Jesus. The attacks just crushed my spirit. They are in good form now ( in one way) but I am exhausted and discouraged. I am like a sponge and have absorbed the negativity into my system. Trying to shake it off. I miss the spiritual balance I had and have started to feel depressed. I am thankful for The Lord Jesus and I have been thanking Him for saving me, the reflections of His beauty and peace in the storm and the brighter parts of Christmas. Yet I feel shattered and somewhat have lost this hopeful feeling about the future. Feeling a bit trapped. Please pray.