Thank you for cooking on this, like my title of this said I've prayed for my own death. I've been struggling with depression for a long long time and I've been alone for a really long time as well I have some co-workers that are some friends but I don't have real friends that I can actually talk to, the last time I went out with a woman was about 15 years ago. My family is somewhat close to me but i live alone. The past few years I've been struggling of what my purpose is, I pray and I pray and I pray and it just seems not to go anywhere and I was at the bottom of my rope so I prayed one last time for my own death, now I know this is not okay but I was at the bottom of my rope I've sent ask God for forgiveness and I've reached out until my family and some friends they told me they will pray for me as well I just wanted to vent and get this off of my chest because I still think about myself and whether or not it's a good idea to die so just keep praying for me thank you