I work in a large busy retail store and I know it's nothing to brag about or rocket science working there but I need a job and this is the place that hired me, it pays more than other stores, grocery stores, fast food etc which probaby sounds sad but true and I don't love it, it's not my dream but i need some money and dont want to be unemployed again and home all day. My dream job would be one that I can actually live on and work 4 days a week like Monday through Thursday or Tuesday Through Thursday and have one day to do all my errands and cleaning and other 2 days to rest and spend time with my family but thats a dream, lol. I am introverted and not always confident plus I ask a lot of questions to find out as much as I can to do better that is me and no matter what the job is I really want to do a great job and have my boss and co-workers glad to work with me and have confidence in my ability but I dont know if they do or just think I'm a nice person. I got reprimanded last night by some supervisor at work, not my department manager who I very rarely ever see. I think my co-worker may have told them I was late taking my lunch because I got called back to office and reprimanded. I am not the best worker there but I am not the worst and even though I am a little rough around the edges , I've been there 2 months, I honestly think I do a good job most of the time and I'm polite with customers and get along with people, sometimes I'd like to say something sarcastic but I dont. I'm average but I'm afraid my co-workers and bosses think I'm stupid because I'm more quiet or not as confident. The lady wednesday night made me nervous and scared I may get fired and I wonder if someone said to boss I wasnt getting all my go backs back which is usually not true, I really try to do a good job and I dont think I deserve to get fired or think that a lot of the other ladies I work with are much better or better. I obviously cant say this to a boss if they call me in to complain because they wont believe me and think I'm in denial or lying or think I'm trying to throw my co-worker under the bus so to speak if I say most of them leave some clothes tables messy end of night. I've been fired years ago at a job because my typing was not good but this job I really dont think i should be let go. I dont know who to trust amongst my co-workers because I hear people talking about others and a woman who I think said something about me not watching my time and taking a late meal was angry when the store hired me and 2 others part-time instead of giving her and another lady full time, I'm the only one of the 3 hired left. I feel scared that I am going to get fired, I felt something in the office the other night with supervisor like maybe the handwriting is on the wall as far as my job goes. Being fired from a job is scary and humiliating, I just sat there with no words coming from my mouth and wanting to say something in my defense but knowing it won't do any good. JUST PRAYERS THAT WHEN I GO TO WORK TOMORROW AND HOPEFULLY NEAR FUTURE THAT I CAN GET TO BE A BETTER AND BETTER WORKER AND HAVE CONFIDENCE. WHEN I THINK ABOUT GETTING FIRED I FEEL SO SICK AND SAD AND LIKE A LOSER THAT CANT DO ANYTHING. PRAYERS EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT. PRAYERS IF THERE IS SOMEONE AT WORK OUT TO MAKE ME LOOK BAD THAT THEY WILL NOT SUCCEED.

PRAYERS ALSO THAT I CAN GET ENOUGH SLEEP FOR WORK, GET TO WORK RIGHT ON TIME AND LEAVE ON TIME AND I DONT GET DISTRACTED BY ANYTHING OR ANYONE AT WORK, THINGS ARE FAIR. MY HOUSE IS IN FORECLOSURE AND DONT KNOW IF HUSBAND GOT LAWYER TO HELP OR LAWYER CAN HELP KEEP HOUSE NOW, PRAYERS WE DONT GET KICKED OUT ON STREET OR LOSE EVERYTHING, NO MONEY TO REPLACE AND PHOTOS CANT BE REPLACED, I DONT WANT TO LEAVE AT LEAST NOT UNTIL KIDS OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL IN ABOUT SIX YEARS AND HOPEFULLY THINGS MIRACULOUSLY BETTER FINANCIALLY BECAUSE I CANT AFFORD ANYTHING. SORRY TO REQUEST PRAYER SO OFTEN BUT ITS REALLY ONLY HELP I HAVE. THANKS. I JUST WANT PEACE AND A NORMAL LIFE.