Jesus, my heart is broken. I am ashamed of myself. My mom and dad care about me so much. They have given their entire lives to making my life better. They continue to fight for me every single day. They do so much for me. They care so much for me. I don’t deserve them.

I am such a mean person; so unfair… I have so much anger inside me. Even though I deserve absolutely nothing, I continually act as if I am worth something… As if my parents owe me something. How unbelievable. How unthinkable…

I judge them. I have fits of rage in front of them. I look at them sometimes with such anger in my face, because of my own bad decisions and because of my own failures. It shreds my heart when my mom and dad just look straight back at me with such a calm, gentle, forgiving smile. How can they forgive me? How can they love me?

I do not deserve my parents. I do not deserve the gift of their deep love for me. How can I break loose of these bad habits? How can I control my actions? How can I be understanding, and forgiving, and supportive like my parents? What can I do to show them how much I love them? Can You help me? Can You enable me to make some of their simple dreams come true?

My heart is broken. My tears don’t want to stop. My regrets are burning inside me like an unquenchable and painful fire. I have failed my parents. I have failed myself. I have failed You. I don’t know what to say. I can never ever repay the love my parents have for me. They are so much greater than I am.

How much greater is Your love for us, if the love that my parents have for me is so unbelievably selfless Jesus? I myself do not deserve the right to ask anything of You Jesus; but I would like to ask with this prayer, for a blessing for my parents.

I can see You in their eyes Jesus. And I can see my reflection in their bright and beautiful eyes too. Me, a sinner, a shameful failure. And then I look past myself, and I see pure love in their eyes. Pure selfless love. I see hope; and courage; and warmth. I see the silent and painfully strong feeling of love so great… That love which has found a way of placing such a retched failure like me before themselves and before their own lives and their own desires. The love of two people who have sacrificed their entire lives to give me the best life I could ever hope for. A life of hope and laughter and love and of forgiveness.

Jesus, you are there. You who have also sacrificed yourself for us; you are in the hearts of my parents. You shine through their eyes.

Thank you for such a gift. Thank you for such an overwhelming love. Thank you for the parents I have. Thank you for all you have blessed us with. And thank you also for all the failures you walked us through.

Jesus, I don’t care if I never ever get a single thing from you ever again. I don’t deserve a thing. But my heart is crushed to see my parents struggle. They deserve so much more from me and from our family than what they receive. I wish I had a gift to give them. I wish I had a way to repay them. I wish I was able to display the love that they so powerfully show me every day.

But all I have to give are worthless tears of regret. Jesus, I am not capable… I am nothing, and I own nothing. Can you please help me Jesus? Not me, but my parents? Please reach down and touch them? I believe Jesus, please help my unbelief (Mark 9:24). They are stricken with a fear of the future as they are without a retirement plan, and I have no security to offer them myself. They do not even own a house of their own yet. My father will retire in 2 years, and then his salary will drop down to R5000 per month on retirement… How can they even afford just their medical aid with such a salary? How we got here is a mystery, as they have always saved and saved… But it seems the economy was not on our side.

Jesus, I plead humbly in front of your feet… For my parents, and not for myself… Please Jesus. Please. Please Jesus. Bless my parents. Give them a way, where there is no way. Give them perfect health. Let each one of them live long healthy lives and reach very advanced age and still feel fit and good and strong every moment. Let them have a secure future. Bless my parents with that unconditional love that they show me every day, through You. Please bring an answer to them and give them a way to buy a house of their own, and live a good quality life until it is their time to be taken home. Please don’t take them away from me anytime soon. I have such fear for that day. I can’t bear the thought. I will be happy to give my life to You as a sacrifice for them if you will have me? If you could take me and direct my path along with theirs. But I know that I am already a disappointment and might disappoint again in the future. I don’t trust my flesh and don’t want the fate of my parents in my hands. Please Jesus, I have no way, no single thing to offer. It is impossible here with us, but I know that nothing is impossible with You Jesus. And I know you are in their lives.

Please Jesus, please be a strong fortress around my parents. Please be their protector from disaster and sickness and disease. Please be their protector from distress. Please protect them from all harm in this world and in the spirit world. Cover them with Your blood. Please let their joy be full by giving them a house that belongs to them, and give them a better retirement salary.

And please soothe their troubles and their heartaches. Please don’t let them feel pain and heartache and don’t allow them to get anxious. Help them and assure them. Be with them every step of the way. I beg You Jesus for this blessing over my parents. They are always there for their children, and we get into tight financial spots so regularly. Now when it’s their turn to ask someone for help, there’s no one available to help them, as we all still have nothing. Where can my parents turn, but to You Jesus?

Please Jesus, hear my prayer, and please answer my prayer urgently. Thank you Jesus! In the Name of Jesus of Nazareth I pray, amen.