I just read an NDE. (that's a near death experience) It was by a man named Christian Andreason. I have worked as a pediatric ER tech for many years and before that I was a firefighter EMT for thirteen years. Last year I almost died from a heart attack and though I have been reading NDE's for many year because I work so closely with death. since my heart attack. I have doubled my efforts to understand God, his word, mans interpretations of God word. (which I'm sure you know are sometime pretty messed up) and the power of prayer. This one NDE is one where the person was able to retain more information than average about Heaven, God, Jesus, why we are here, What lust, evil and those things are, spiritual warfare, angels,demons Christianity and so on. I urge you to read his near death experience and I also stand in agreement with your prayer. By the name of Jesus. Google Christian Andreason's near death experience. I think it will give you insight on how to cope fight and win in your situation. I also urge you to read extraordinary NDE stories from the NDERF web page. God is giving us insight when we sometimes die and come back through modern medicine. It's powerful and it's encouraging. It also confirms that we are the creators of our own situations and that we in turn have the power to change are situations through prayer and love and gratitude.
I hope this helps. I just quite my job and have a little uneasiness in my life but reading this NDE really helped me see thing in a new light because of the revelations in provides. I am now very excited about the wonderful future I myself through God's love will create.