God is testing me and I am being tormented by the devil. God challenged me to believe for a miracle. .. a miracle of restoration. I don't mean to whine, but this is awful. Most nights I wake up and cry and pray throughout the night. I look for distractions. It's been a 2 month nightmare.

I was dating Steven, I truly do love him. We weren't married so many won't pray in a seriousness, but I assure you my love for him is just the same and I would marry him.
He has changed, he got involved with the wrong friends and I'm VERY concerned about him. He has stepped away from our relationship. This goes beyond romantic notions, I'm worried about him as my friend, my partner.. I'm concerned about his well-being. I don't want to sound naive but I know he loves me.

SEVERAL times in our relationship, I would ask God to shown me a sign, reveal to me his plan,.. if Steven wasn't meant for me, take him away. Many times it would have been easier to have broken up with him, but everytime I prayed that way, God stepped in and spoke - gave me signs, visions, miracles. Then out of the blue , this happened. This is not what God spoke. I've had relationships end in the past, this is different. God then placed the story of Hosea and Gomer on my heart. We serve a God that still preforms miracles, and I know He doesn't go back on His promises.

I'm praying for him. I'm praying for his safety. Much like Hosea and Gomer, I pray that Steven isn't satisfied, that he isn't successful doing wrong... that he will be convicted and his eyes opened to what is happening. I know alot of you may judge this post... but I'm desperate. Miracles are things that we do not understand, the "impossible".. I'm asking for prayer and for support. I intend on fully giving God the praise he is due, but I need warriors to help me there. Not only did God speak to me, he spoke to many others. I know it's in His hands, His timing, but I'm ready for MY MIRACLE.

I had movement Tuesday but I'm ready.