Going through divorce, I'm 50, no career, no degree or trade school, sah mom. Husband still pays all bills, mom moved in and buys groceries, need money badly. Can't depend on them forever and don't want to. No clue what to do. Hard to go back to school full time and have to get aid since still married. I've gained weight and look and feel crummy, I'm actually embarrassed about prospect of wearing some t-shirt uniform for low pay job I applied for (Panera Bread) and I don't know how I'm gonna live on a job like that if I get it in future but I can't stay home and keep being scared, depressed and get fatter. Can't be complete leech either. I'm not intellectually slow but I'm no brain either. I feel Iike time is running out, I don't need lots of money but I'm sorry to say I don't want to be destitute either and I feel guilty saying that because Christians supposed to be happy in all circumstances. I just want to pay utilities every month, rent, buy groceries, have a cell phone, have a decent safe car even if it's used and be able to pay for gas and upkeep and buy me and kids clothes when we need them and maybe have some clean fun once in a while. Is that being greedy? I hope not. I don't know how to do this. I'm scared. Someone online said they were praying that I draw closer to God continually, that God gives me direction and the Holy Spirit helps me make wise choices. I'm all for this too. I'm saved but have a hard time not trying to figure things out. How do I draw closer to God and always know what he wants me to do??? Without some decent livable paying career I don't know how I will make it in the future and it's coming soon. Things just seem hopeless. Math and science careers aren't for me, I'm bad at science and although can add, divide, multiply and subtract but not calculas, trig., etc. I'm more of a baker, cook, pleasing people, beauty, spa, not Heath and computers and that's the in thing career wise. I can't seem to break free. I need a miracle. Things HAVE to change.