Andrew God is love, and He does love us, but He also gave us a free will, but there is evil in this world too. So it is for us to decide who we will serve, evil or good, those who worship falls gods, do voodoo, or witchcraft, will reap what they saw, and it goes from one generation to another. There are so many who do not believe nor serve God, and they don't care about their neighbors, or themselves. Sometimes accidents do happens too, but someday we can ask God when we see Him face to face, as to why bad things happens to good people. You seem to be stuck in the old testament. Read the new testament where you see we are under grace now, and God is not a tormentor, nor is looking to come after us to punish us. We punish ourselves when we reject God, and don't serve and love Him. In the old testament God had to teach His people as a father do with a son that keeps doing things that will hurt himself. But Jesus came to safe us and give us eternal life, that doesn't mean eternal life here on earth, but with him in heaven when we leave this world if we accept Jesus sacrifice for us. I pray God will open your eyes to His loving kindness, and bring you out of the darkness before it's too late for you. In Jesus mighty name I pray amen.