I pray that we as a community come together as a true christian faith abiding community. I'm a little surprised that I have not received assistance yet. This will be year 4 of homeless. My health is deteriorating and I'm losing my eyesight. So many people with wealth and I believe in my christian community. I need God more than ever and I need this community to help me and keep i me in there prayers. 2011 is a longtime to be sleeping on the streets. I ask why the rich continue to watch as we depend on government for every thing. One favor from the heart and the Lords Mercy could end suffering for so many. I go to CVS and see the homeless man asking for change and I envy him for his humility. I have a hard time asking for a handout cause I still believe i'm one of you. A string of bad luck and evil deeds lead to my misfortune and I prayed that God would send a angel of light and remove the dark sadness around me. 2017 and nothing has happen but I can't stop praying for those and myself. Without hope I would be dead and I could not see myself without the Lord. To those who feel like it hopeless I can know longer give a answer why things are getting worse. I can only say pray even more until God changes the heart of the fortunate. I want to go to heaven so suicide is not a option. Iv'e been to churched and felt nothing and it seem the church could not help me. But I can't give up on the notion that God is real and Jesus died so I can live. Not on the street but being attacked and prayed upon. For a guy who is relatively smart, this is not the life God wants for anyone. My pursuit of happiness is to be blessed by the blood of Jesus Christ and to be buy his side and love ones who passed. The evil encounter on a daily basis is beyond anything I could have imagine. I worked for Law firms all my life and put a cross on my desk to remind me to be thankful for the job and anything God has blessed me with. I gained enemies because of it. I never in my wildest dreams thought loving Christ would be my downfall. If I left the world today I would be happy that I gave God me total devotion and love the world with all its flaws. I wanted to see myself not one last time a man should be. Proud and a help to those in need, lending a hand to those less fortunate. But here I am, sweat and dirty smelling odor after days of walking around Washington, DC in circles trying to safe cause people who want to do you harm are watching you. Not because you did anything to them but because you look to the Lord for your salvation. They have giving up a longtime ago. I simply disgust them to some extent. Little do they know I feel the same way. I too feel like giving up but that's not the path to heaven according to the bible. I resist the preachers who come to the park but don't want you to visit there church because don't fit with the patrons. Somehow through prayer your supposed to now climb up out of your situation. So they tell you can I pray for you. I say yes and can I pray for you. This cycle repeats year 1,2, 3, 4, and we pray and pray. We talk of Job and his unfledging faith and we then believe subconsciously that you don't need help as bad as others. Any reason to say someone else will help. It's in Gods hands. Our lives are in man and woman hands
that may or may not follow the Word of God. That's the only reason someone like me or worse is suffering year after year. I plead to you change someone life and even if you don't want to help me. Help someone but don't continue to be a Christian in label only. I can't get to heaven just by proclaiming i'm of Christ. I will have to stand before him and attest to every thought, good or bad, and my deeds on earth will be measured. Did feed the hungry, cloth the poor, nourish the sick. I Jesus name i'm committed to do this is giving the opportunity regardless of my present circumstances. I seek the Baptism necessary to get to the Kingdom washed in the blood of Christ. Honor thy God and parents and pray for the less fortunate. I glady give myself to Lord God and repent of any and every sin today but this is a necessary letter to my Christian brother and sisters.